Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Looking back, starting again.

After school today, I went to the Temple for the first time in years. I decided to "initiate" my return by doing just that. I even went to "my" Temple, where I first went in 2002...the Jordan River.


Just when I thought I might be able to keep my emotions in check, one of the workers asked me if I knew an Ann Brand. At this point, I got excited and was just about to say "Yes, she is my grandpa's sis-in-law", when she finished her question by asking if I knew Bertie Brand.


I lost it.
I could barely speak. Bertie was my dear, dear grandma. This sister told me what a special lady my grandma was. She passed away 7 years ago and not a day goes by that I don't miss her and my grandpa. I cried through the rest of my time spent at the Temple, and on the way home as well. I knew my return would bring tears, but I didn't expect to get that emotional.
This is my grandma. The peacemaker. She truly loved and accepted everyone. She had no enemies. I can only hope to be half as good a lady as she was.






Monday, October 27, 2008

What's my name??

Today was my first day working on patients. Well...sort of. I had help.

I have been stressing over this day, and just KNEW I would forget everything. It helped that there were 3 other girls who had the same look on their face as I did. My instructor, Jen, handed me a chart and informed me that it was now my patient. I think it was at that point I forgot my own name. Jen said everyone is like that on the first day. The four of us newbies just looked at each other, hoping for the best. Thank goodness it all turned out okay!

Tomorrow I will remember everything.....right???

Sunday, October 26, 2008

The Law of the Harvest

...delivered by Lloyd Newell

As our calendars turn to Autumn, nature's grand finale of seasons dresses up around us. On many mountainsides and hills, the robes of summer's green have given way to quilts of red, orange, yellow, and amber. Overhead, autumn shines down on everyone as the harvest moon fills the sky with it's singular brilliance. Soon winter will come, and with it shorter days, frosty mornings, trees stripped of their foliage, quiet skies, and rest for the farmers' fields -- for a season.

What does fall bring to our lives after so many sun-drenched days? A backdrop of rich new colors; fallen leaves that pile up on lawns and crunch underfoot; a new schoolyear for students; festivals, fairs, and football games; patches of pumpkins and hay stacked in the barn.

We see evidence of the law of the harvest all around us: "For whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap." It has been so since the beginning of time. We must plant a seed to watch the sprouting, nurture the growth, then face the scorcing sun, wind, floods, and droughts before we gather in the harvest. Then, only then, do we reap autumn's glory.

Like the farmers' fields, our souls must be tended and nourished, time and again. While hardship and happiness, light and darkness, pain and promise circle around us, we can sow a hearty temperament, cultivate sheer resilience, and find time at the end or beginning of the day to tend the furrows of our souls. And like the harvest we gathered from the dappled countryside, we will keep a bounty of faith, discipline, virtue, industry, and goodwill.

In ancient days, The land was good and that "glorious bloom" surrounds us still with promise of an even greater harvest. We sing "hosanna to such days to come"-- days of renewal, hope, and plenty for both the soil and the soul, when we will reap the blessings of what we sow.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Immunity

So.....a few years ago, during a routine blood test for school, I found out that, even though I have had Chicken Pox, my body was not immune to it. (Run-on sentence???)
Anyway, I had to get immunized for it. No big deal. What's another shot?

Now, I had to get the Hepatitis B immunizations for school. For anyone who doesn't know, that consists of 3 shots over a 6 month time. Well, I got the results from the Titer test. Guess what?? The shots didn't work! I have no immunity against Hep B! That means another shot, plus the Titer test again in 6 weeks, HOPING it worked this time. I don't want to start at the beginning again.

What is up with my immune system????

Sunday, October 19, 2008

A new day



I feel like I just got a second chance. As a member of The Church Of Jesus Christ Of Latter Day Saints, I have been keeping in touch with my bishop this last year to deal with past mistakes. The last several years have been....challenging.
Today, I nervously went to my bishop for a different conversation. I wasn't sure if I would leave happy, or if I would be crying. I knew what I wanted, but didn't know what the outcome would be. Is it too soon? Am I not ready? ...just a couple fears I had. I trust my bishop completely and knew that he would be in tune with the spirit, as he always has been. It still didn't mean I would get what I wanted. I knew it was up to God. As I sat in his office, we chatted, he said he knew the reason I was there. He was prepared.
Well.....
I did leave his office with a tear in my eye, but also humble, and a feeling of thankfulness. I left with my Temple Recommend. It has been more than 3 years since I last went to the Temple.
Tonight, as I was studying my scriptures, thankful for the opportunity, I came across a new favorite scripture. It is one of those "it spoke to me" sort of moments. I will share...
Mosiah 27:29
My soul hath been redeemed from the gall of bitterness and bonds of iniquity. I was in the darkest abyss; but now I behold the marvelous light of God. My soul was racked with eternal torment; but I am *snatched and my soul is pained no more.
*snatched - to snatch away from danger, to save
I am so thankful for this gospel and for a merciful God.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

At the beginning...

Well....after signing up on Blogger in November of 2004....I finally decided I should start using it! Please be patient with me as I get everything updated and in order. I have kept a "journal" on Xanga, but that was a different life and it is time to move on. Blogging seems to be the thing for "mommies" and I do not fit in that category. I am a single 27 year old, so I can't say my blog will be very interesting to many bloggers out there. Nevertheless, here I am. (I DO have a nephew and 10 nieces that I love to brag about! So if I am writing about kids, don't get confused, they are not mine! ...but I love them just the same).

A condensed history of me...
I am the youngest child of 5, and grew up in a small town in Utah. I moved to the big city (Houston, TX) when I was 21 and there I stayed for 5 years. I moved back to Utah one year ago this month. I didn't go to college while I was in TX (even though that was the plan), but to say it was wasted time would be false. I still did ALOT of learning, most of it was the hard way, but I still learned. I loved being in Texas, and I loved (and still love) the people I met, but the distance was just too far from family. I WILL talk alot about my time in Texas, simply cause thats when my life changed.

SO...like I said, I moved back to Utah a year ago and decided it was finally time to get a career. I have been in school to be a dental assistant and am getting ready to go out on an externship. This scares the crap out of me. Now I have to put all I learned into action. Did I really deserve all the A's I got in my classes? I suddenly feel like I don't know anything! I keep telling myself it won't be as bad as I am making it out to be, but alas, I tend to worry more than I should.

We shall see....